Australia for three weeks :) I'm so excited, hopefully it will be just as amazing as Canada. I'm most looking forward to the first week where we'll be travelling by car and stopping in different parts. Hopefully it will be enjoyable and my parents won't always argue, or make me feel uncomfortable. I'm glad I can put everything out, all of my love and happiness. It's good i'm feeling more and more okay, but the challenges are yet to come and I'll handle them confidently now. I'm a tough, hot chick ;)

All I want is the cool water at my feet with the great big sea as far as I can see. I want beauty all around me so I can breathe, the warmth of the sun and no one bothering me. I long for this freedom to return to me. I often wonder what I deserve, and surely I deserve this? I'd do anything to start over before the darkness claws back into me. I want to be on a small plane above the thousands of treetops, past odd looking mountains with snow caps still on the very tops. I want a small plane to drop me off on a coast, with a secluded beach. A VW van and I'd be on my way, road trips throughout wherever I was. Just me, on the road. Being free.

Beat Radio. Longing for freedom. Movies. Boring stuff like ironing and sorting out papers. :/

i need to be far away. i miss the feeling i got from being in Canada. such a breathtaking and spacious places full of wonderous sights. i miss being there. wish i could just escape, set up home where no one would find me in the middle of all those trees and mountains - they do still have remote places over there. it would be lovely. my dream. just shut myself off from society for most of my days, go into a small town for company but otherwise hide out until i was ready. i could love the scenery around me, and in turn it would love me back by showing me its beauty daily. that's all i need or want.

Change. The uknown. Summer's ending feeling. I just want to be free, be wild and have my own place. I want to belong and be happy.